The Reason I Took All Posts Down...

Despite the fact that I know it really doesn't matter what I do or don't say, everyone thinks they know why I do what I do anyway (and it's always the worst possible motivation), this is the reason.

The lengths that some of you stoop to get me to take them down about you.

But what you don't get is that I never would've gone public - had you not attacked me.

When Carly published that first public post, she knew exactly what she was doing - drawing in Jlee and the Fight Club for reinforcement, when things went badly between us.

I don't have anything to prove to anyone here and I'm tired of being under the microscope.

I know who I am, I know what happened here, and despite how implausible it may sound - it really did happen exactly as I said.

No, Fight Club - I'm not going to go away and start over and blog under a different name, skulking away like some criminal - I didn't do these criminal things - YOU did and try to pin them on me, as well as Lee on his own starting this game.

But in the end, you win - you get any and all posts taken down about you, but can continue to say whatever YOU want, wherever you want, regarding me.

How proud you must be.:)

Victims of Southern/Southern Anonymous Support Group Forming, to Your Far Left: Please see Shelly Rayedeane

Can I sell the T-shirts to pay for my legal fees? lol

...now that's just....sad, lol.It's so irrational, illogical, and twisted that it's almost not even worth a response. Oh, but I will, for my own amusement.

Yeah, Shelly, that totally makes sense. I was too wicked even for the Fight Club, so they ousted me, lol.

Surrrre, totallllly rational that you're so paranoid about what the Fight Club did that you live in your car by choice, but you are now reaching out to them to help you start a support group for victims of...me.

And it makes total sense that even though they did the same thing to you and worse, you are an innocent victim of them, but I'm not.

Toootttallly credible that even though you have no real-life friends at all, are a lesbian, and admitted in those last creep mails your obssession with TWO celebrities that barely spoke to you - it's YOU that can't get rid of ME - even though you publically admitted on Mark's blog you were jealous because I was posting on Mark's blog and not yours just two weeks ago.

And since your whole point is that you're mad that I shared those creepsterfest emails with my real-life friends, it's completely logical that you'd want to air it all publically in court.

Dohkay.

So...do you hysterical whacktards think anything through before you spew it, or just... throw it out there and hope that nobody notices the fallicies in your logic, crying victim when someone points it out or throws rocks BACK at the shit you've spewed, publically and privately?

I was never a member of the Fight Club, dear. They asked both me and Rich to join them and pull a prank on someone else's blog, just leave ridiculous comments and run away; like TP-ing someone's house. We both thought it was stupid, didn't have time, and thought it could lead to trouble - which it eventually did. People started calling them on each other over bullshit and they never asked for proof, they just enjoyed doing it.

In fact, believe it or not, when I declined, Brian said, "That's okay - you're not mean enough anyway" and I wasn't sure why I had to be - now I know.

Even though I warned y'all on that first profile - "I'm the most empathetic person in the world until you're mean to myself or others without provocation - then I can and will chew you up and spit you out"...but you just had to test me.

And lemme just clear this up about boundaries because I don't think it's sinking in. Here, I'll draw you a diagram.

Shelly

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Carly.

There, I drew a boundary line for you. You are two separate entities and not the same person, ya dig?

Find a place where one stops and the other begins, please, you're turning into one big ball of enmeshed personality, it's getting scary, lol.

And where are all these comments about you all over the net?

Only at Mark's and Crushed's, IN RESPONSE to what you've said, as well as posts which were also IN RESPONSE to what you said publically on your blog.

The only other comments I've left anywhere were to a few commenters under the bash post to let them know they might be involving themselves in her case unintentionally. Only a few, tho, then let the information filter.


Check the dates and times, dear....this cake didn't bake until YOU two put it in the oven.

However, I DO see your nonsense all over where it shouldn't be and me nowhere around.

And I took the posts down because, as you know, I felt badly for them after I'd written them out of a anger and in such a mean way, even though they were in response to your bullshit - BUT STILL TRUE. Welp, got over that in a hurry, lol...so, back to here we go.

Action ----> Reaction....are we catching on yet?

You and Carly can stop this whole thing at anytime you choose, you're in control.:)

I wish you net people that become so enmeshed and boundariless with one another could see objectively how hysterical, irrational, and ridiculous you are being at this point, lol. I mean, just step back and take a look at yourselves and what you're doing over a person you don't even know in real life, only talked to briefly in person, if ever.

Shelly, you asked me what Dr. Kelley said about your emails?

Call her yourself, she'll talk to you and I trust her. And you don't think she does, but she confronts me on my shit, but she usually doesn't have to because I tell her everything, what I did AND the other person, as you know. Tell her whatever you want. She knows all the good and bad about me already, so there's really nothing you can say that's going to change that.:)

Her main issue with the emails (paraphrasing) was that it was abundantly clear that you really had a problem separating fantasy from reality, choosing instead to act on what you believed to be true about our friendship rather than what you were being told and reality.

And it doesn't matter what was written before or in other emails in this case, those were confessional as well as final.

Because when a person tells you the feelings aren't mutual, they're starting to get uncomfortable with your behavior, they're pissed that you lied about your intentions this whole time (and several other things), and want no more contact in real life?

You definitely don't respond back with sexual fantasy and stories about obsessions with celebrities and your psychic connections with them.;)

By the way - nobody from the net that you're connected in any way with has ever seen them - including Mark. Just real-life people.

Wow, that on-call therapist I called in Dr. K's stead (who has immediate access to MY records, by the way) to read your texts and ask how to handle them was absolutely right about what you would do when you realized none of your manipulations would keep me around anymore. ;)

Bubby's Birthday, and H. Piddy?:)

~~~~~~~~~ BUBBY ~~~~~~~~~~

I'd like to leave on a more positive note than before; less embittered by my experiences here than I felt just a few days ago.

For "ye of little attention span," the videos are at the end - the second one starts out slow, but you'll need your Depends by the end.

My daughter expressed to me recently, despite all we've been through, that she can finally start to feel again now, she feels safe enough here now...and I know the feeling. :)

She will be turning 15 in two weeks (not the happy part), and I will be holding a slumber party here for 16 girls (I...guess that's the happy part?).

Her real dad will be having a her first boy-girl party at his house two weeks later, WITH 42 OF HER FRIENDS IN HIS BACK YARD, lol.

As it turns out, my daughter ended up with the better parts of me, only more confident and less uptight (miraculously). She is extraordinarily popular, but not in a "cheerleader, shitty" popular sort of way; she has friends in several different groups, from cheerleaders to band geeks to IT/AV nerds, as I did.

She has 4 boys that come-a-texting regularly, they get wrapped quick. Hmm, I'm gonna ask her secret.

Her main man is a 17-year-old who was just accepted on half-scholarship to Harvard, straight-A student, abstinent, witty as hell, and a little gentleman. For instance, THIS one asked her ex-boyfriend first if he could date her now, bypassing the "six-month rule" lol.

Though most are female friends, she also has a ton of guy friends, as I did, that love to text or facebook her something bizarre, just to see what she'll shoot back with. Can't imagine WHERE she gets THAT, can you?;)

They compare responses and become mock-jealous if she says the same thing twice, lol, and they love to see who can shock or freak the other one out and um, my daughter usually wins? Hmm, not sure if that's a good or bad thing, lol.

Just for fun, I pick up the phone and if I'm greeted with something bizarre in text, I pull the mom card, just so I can hear the virtual "gulp" from the kid at the other end, hehehe.

For instance, I opened the phone while she was in the shower and was greeted with: "Only because you sodomize me every day."

?????

What the...?

Actually, I snickered to myself and wondered what in God's name could've possibly been the question that THIS was a response too and read the outbox, which said, "You don't realize this, but you're gay."

So I text the kid and say, "Now...imagine you're Bubby's mom and you open the phone, only to be greeted with THAT, what would you do?"

He texts back, "You started it," thinking I'm McKenna.

So I text back, "Your FACE started it, this is Bubby's Mom."

Gulp.

Hehehe, ain't I a stinkah?

I'm pretty sure that kid peed his pants and I laughed for an hour, finally had McKenna tell him it was all good, I was just messing with him...and they need to think about what they say in text sometimes. They pretty much know I have a good sense of humor, but also that I will lay down the law when necessary. Sometimes they even text ME just to say "Hi" or for advice.

This past weekend, Bubby and best friend, Aly, showed me some Harry Potter-ish YouTube videos before leaving to her grandmother's this week, and we laughed for 30 minutes....but it DOES take us so little.

The Half-Blood Prince of Bel-Air/H. Piddy in the Hood, as well as Potter Puppet Pals: Wizard Swears You Should Never Say;)

These are bizarre and disturbing on so many levels, I forewarn you, lol....but enjoythemandbuhhhhhhhbyenow!!!



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